I don’t think anyone can actually see this, well I hope not.I need to vent , pronto.

So there’s this guy… how every vent…problem..or love story starts. I met him almost a monthish ago, and I had a crush on him instantly & the more I started talking to him the more I started to like him. Then we hung out, and it was one of the best nights ever. From then on I talked to him almost 24 hours a day , and hung out with him almost every day. He was my first thought in the morning, my last thought in the afternoon. Even though I had only known him for weeks, I felt closer to him & his family than some of my bestfriends I had known for years. He was the funniest, sweetest, most chill guy ever. Me & everyone else thought we were gonna end up dating, & I was just waiting on it. We were gonna be such a cute couple ,that I thought might actually be the one that was gonna last. Then one day, the talking gets less….and less. Other girls start writing on his wall. He keeps sending you mixed signals.. you’re not even sure if yall are talking, friends, or about to be complete strangers again… every time you talk to him, even for a second you start smiling because you think maybe it’s meant to be , it’s gonna work out. But then, he says something to change your mind, & you KNOW it’s gonna be the last time yall ever talk again. Just like that poof, a guy you REALLY like has just dissapeared from your life as if they never existed. Only thing you have left is the hairband of his on your wrist, memories in your head, a frown on your face & a hole in your heart. Only thing I know, is the days I did spend with him were great , and I miss him already.. but the brightside is , I guess if he wants her , that will make him happy. & At least I can look on the brightside that he is happy, and those days I hung with him, are something no one else can have and I know for those moments… he liked me. kay, Im done with my depressing girl post now, time to go back to pretending Idgaf. laterrrr!

Then there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you. No need for loving you. No need for crying over you. No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten promises. No need for rejected hugs. No need for crying myself to sleep. No need for acting like you care. No need for everything you’ve done, to make me feel like I’m absolutely nothing.

but then again, I’m glad I did meet you. ‘cause you were always the one that asked me if anything was wrong. You were the one that loved me for me. You were the one who cared when everybody else didn’t. The one who listened. The one who stayed up late to talk about the randomest shit ever. You were the one I told secrets to. The one who taught me new things. The one who laughed at my bad jokes. The one who did things, just for me.

So I miss my bestfriend. &yes that bestfriend is a guy. That bestfriend I have also went out with twice. & yes, that bestfriend that I used to love & broke me. But, I miss him as just my bestfriend. He was the only person that could make me smile somedays. He was my entertainment throughout class. He was the only person that could understand some situations. He was my BESTFRIEND. but, I haven’t talked to him in about a month , ya know , some people just change & change because of the people they care about. I’m guilty of it too. I just wish I could go back in time to about 2-3 months ago.

Guess who’s going to be in Chattanooga, Tennessee tomorrow & Wednesday? Thissss girl. I’m still a little sad about not being able to go to the beach, but going to Tennessee is better than going no where , I guess. BUT , we are going to Rock City, Ruby Falls & Incline railroad? tomorrow. & then Wednesday we’re going to the Aquarium, which is what I’m looking forward too. ♥    & there’s a pool in our hotel , woooot! the only sad part , is I’m going to miss PLL tomorrow night. :( oh welll.

Ruby Falls that I’ll be seeing. <3

My friend wrote this I think ,I don’t know I got it from her FB. I don’t take any credit. ——>

Here’s to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through those bitter times, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, “I only want to be your friend”, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here’s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even snuck around to see him for a while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here’s to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here’s for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn’t possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated.

♥

So I’ve been Tinychatting since 11:30 , it’s now 4:30. Alot has went on.

First I just typed with Macy until I could get my webcam to work & then I webcammed with her & Jada until she had to get off. We put our super cool sunglasses on &  then her dog’s cammed , she ate popcorn & danced to Lady Gaga.

After Jada got off, we decided to go to public chat & went to “weedman’s” chat. We met alot of freaks. Like the hilarious dude ” I love *****” , weedman (he’s a cute pothead) , Kio! (cute;) ) kev! , dude with dead animal hat & some terrioists.

While all of this is going on we’re also chatting with Airionna :D

Well, that’s been my night. I love Tinychat now ,ha.

Macy , Me & Airionna. ♥

So I watched the season finale of Secret Life of the American Teenager & as the title says, I cried a lot. I’ve been watching Secret Life ever since my cousin TJ got me hooked. One summer I went back & watched it from the beginning & have been addicted. It’s seriously, an addiction. I will literally drop everything I’m doing on every Monday night at 8:00 to watch it. The house has to be silent & everyone knows if they mess with me while my show’s on , it’s not gonna be a good day.

Anyways, I love Amy& Ricky together. I love Ben & Adrienne together. & I was the only one thrilled when Adrienne got pregnant. I thought that meant that Amy and Ricky would finally be together forever. My hopes got even more high after Ben & Adrienne’s wedding ,which was amazing. My wish was ruined in tonight’s episode.

Adrienne’s baby was stillborn. I get the idea that the show is promoting March Of Dimes, by making her baby die , but it was still too sad. Ben was crying , thought not highly unusual, but then everyone else started crying. & what really made my heart break, was when Ricky started crying. I think I died a little inside. Then, when she asked for Amy , my heart broke again. I can only imagine what Amy felt. She must be so lucky to have John , even after everything she has lost from him ,she also has gained a lot.

The ending made it better though. Amy & Ricky together, even though the previews make it seem like that’s not gonna last much longer. Anyways, I love how Ricky love’s Amy. I also adore how Nora is all about Amy , and how she thinks that she looks like her when she was younger. I also agree with Nora, I think that Ricky would have loved Amy without John being born. John just made their relationship grow stronger, I believe. Benefit of teenage pregnancy, not that I promote that. I just think that everything happens for a reason. & God has a plan.

Anyways, I can’t wait until next week’s episode. I swear though, if Ben and Amy end up back together my parents are gonna have to by a new TV & I’m never watching this show again.

Ben & Adrienne. I hope that Ben realizes how much Adrienne needs him, and for him not to be thinking about AMY in next week’s episode.

so,

I can’t figure out the other email to my personal , so I just remade it.

So some of the posts are old ,I’m just recopying on here.

conffffffusssionnn. I swear. -.-